Thursday, July 17, 2014

The Hand Of God

In March, 2014, I was leaving my son's house in the early evening and looked up and saw this beautiful site in the sky beside his house.  "Wow" I said to myself.  I was absolutely awestruck.  The beautiful hand of God reaching down to me, to everyone throughout the world.  How awesome is that?

I sat there with my car pulled over on the side of the road and just gazed up at it while deeply breathing it all in.  A sign?  I believe so.  So much has happened in my life and in the lives of my family, particularly over the past year.  We are so loved by our Heavenly very very loved...every single one of us. We are NEVER alone.  He is ALWAYS with us.

Just a short month ago, late at night as I was laying in bed, I placed my hand on top of my head, with eyes closed tight and deep in prayer for a full body healing.  As I was deep in prayer, suddenly what came into my vision was a hand reaching out, something like this one above, but I could only see just the finger tips.  It then disappeared and I saw, in very small scale, the face of Jesus, and that, too, then disappeared.  Again, "wow" was all I could think at the time as I was so deep in prayer at the moment for healing.  Another sign?  Again, I like to believe so.

I recently went for an MRI of my breasts and met with my Oncologist.  It was found that some of the lymph nodes had shrunk in size.  Yes, shrunk in size!  Amen!  I'll take that kind of news any day.  Thank you, Lord!

Even though we feel utterly alone in the flesh at times when we are so deep in the valley, deep in our storms...He is with us. What a comforting thought.  Only but a breath away...even more comforting. 

I share this picture with all of you to give you even more hope in knowing we are completely His.  He formed us and has us imprinted in the palms of his Hands.  We are each unique in our being.  We are all His beautiful children, each one of us with an individual purpose that He created us for.  

Live in the moment never taking it for granted despite whatever storm you are battling against.  He is with us, dear friends.  Oh, yes He is!

Tuesday, July 15, 2014


A wise man once told me, and this is very simple, that we are not responsible for other people's choices, with the exception of our children of course, when they're younger and we are teaching them and they don't know any better.
I used to get so angry when my husband smoked cigarettes because I knew that was shortening his life span, and I used to do everything in my power to try to get him to stop, with no success.

used to get so upset and then one day a male counselor friend of mine told me that I was not responsible for his choices, to stop beating myself up about it. Bam, it hit me...the light turned on, and I became free of that.

It was a life decision he made and despite the tears and trying to get him to quit on my part, I continued on with life loving him completely despite that frailty of his. It happens. Tomorrow could be our last day on earth. You could die tomorrow, tonight even, and so could I. Don't waste another precious moment that you have been gifted with to forgive, to love everyone like you're suppose to. Tomorrow may never come.

Life is short. God is our judge and the judge of others...we are not. We are to love one another as He loved us and aren't we suppose to forgive no matter how hard it is? Aren't we suppose to open our door to all? Aren't we suppose to love our neighbor as we love ourselves?

Sometimes pride gets in the way and we try to adjust everything around us to make it just right, but life is not perfect. We are not perfect. People sin. Hearts get broken. Families and friends get torn apart, get shuffled back and forth with their opinions of what is right and what is wrong. 

Can't we simply LOVE one another despite our frailties, our wrongdoings? Doesn't He want us to love despite it all? To forgive? Isn't that His way? Isn't that for Him to judge? I know it's hard. I've been there so many times and I've had to remind myself to still love, to forgive no matter what.

So many people are hurting in this world and we are no exception just because we live in small town USA. It happens, and we spend so much time debating, defending ourselves and what we think is the right thing, that we forget to simply love despite it all. We lose precious time to just be, to forgive freely, to love, and to love those that are just as imperfect as we are. That's right.

Look in the mirror, can you stand there and say to yourself that you are perfect, without flaw? No. None of us can.

Friday, July 11, 2014

An Agape Love, That's What I Want

1 John 4:16 NKJV
"God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him."

As I face each new day, I am reminded how deeply I am loved by the deeply I am loved by my husband...who has passed on from this world.  They are together in eternity, and that thought makes my heart rejoice now.  They send me signs in the clouds by way of hearts.  I am a sky watcher.  I LOVE the sky.  Both the Lord and my husband know that.  It brings refreshment to my soul and I am mesmerized by it's beauty.  Many days have gone by since my husband's passing, and many times I have captured pictures of hearts in the sky.  It is such a beautiful site and leaves me in complete awe and wonderment.  To know that I am loved, that we are loved, by a God who created us, sculpted us and loves us like his only child, is so absolutely beautiful.  A God who loves us with an unconditional love, an agape love, is mind-blowing to me.  

It is my heart's desire to be a light for others.  It is my heart's desire to love others unconditionally like our Heavenly Father does.  It is my heart's desire for the Holy Spirit to consume me, to reside in me, so that I can love all others unconditionally.  I am not perfect.  I am human, but my heart's love and desire to fill His purpose here on this earth, the purpose He created me for, is all consuming within my being.  I want that agape love.  I want the Lord to shine through me to others. 

Friday, March 7, 2014

His Grace Is Sufficient

The loves of my husband and my grandchildren (my two children are as well, but pictures not included here).  God has blessed me abundantly with providing a family such as this.  Everyone unique in their own being.  Just the way He made them...intended them to be.  Though we are now minus love, their Papa, a has continued on.  Every day holds promise amidst the sea.  Every single day.  I deeply look into each one of their eyes and I'm reminded of how precious life is, how each moment counts and how quickly they vanish in the blink of an eye.  

Grief, promise, hope, love, belief, trust, strength, courage, endurance, grace, divine mercy, repentance, forgiveness, peace, comfort and even joy...all words that have flooded across my soul and consumed me to the very core especially over this past year.  A time of great testing for sure.  And I look at their faces...their beautiful faces...and I say, "thank you, Lord."  Family...It's a beautiful thing.  I would be lost without them.  We would be lost without each other.  We would be completely lost without Him...our Lord, our first and foremost love above all people, above all things.

2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV
God said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

God's grace is enough for me, for all of us.  My strength comes from Him and Him alone...not of my own doing.  I am too weak physically, mentally, every way.  My complete trust is in Him, and I am so thankful to Him for everything.  His ways, promises and timing are always true, always right, always perfect and His power is always there amidst EVERY situation.